2 is not better than 1

I have come to find the God has a funny sense of humor and that I am stubborn beyond belief. That saying "Trouble runs in pairs," is completely accurate. It seems that whenever I decide to talk to either The Ex or India, the other one some how pops back into my life. I am no longer interested in either of them in the sense of emotional relationship connections, but for some reason I still chat with them from time to time. This seems to keep holding me back from other opportunities, which I no longer want to allow.

A while back I visited a good friend who I have been interested in for several years and vice verse. Due to my "relationship" with India, I refused to even kiss this cutie. We live very far apart and that one night was the first time I saw him in 2 years and probably in another 2, one opportunity lost....

Now I find that my "trouble pair" is striking again.... There has been this guy in my life for a while now that I am discovering holds the essence of a real man. He is tall, good looking, fun loving, kind, inviting, Irish, and Catholic!!!! This is like the guy I want, but never seem to be able to find. And there he is, hanging out in my life, and I have been too blind to realize. Well, I've finally realized that unless I end the relationships and occasional smooch fests with the other two, this one great man will not be allowed into my life in the way that I think he's meant to be there. Sometimes there are things you can just feel, and in this situation, I feel like I need to stop being an idiot and start being a woman. Even talking to the exes is silly and not worth it, especially if it will keep me away from finding Mr. Right.

So ladies and gents, if there is someone who just happens to be hanging out in your life, start living to be with them. Start making your self worthy of their love, because they most likely are willing to give it to you. Sometimes you can help shape those opportune moments in life by simply wising up to that which is around you.

Quote of the Day

"Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things, in which smiles, and kindnesses, and small obligations, given habitually, are what win and preserve the heart and secure comfort."


Humphrey Davy

Simply Enjoying Life

So I haven't written in a little while and a few noteworthy things have happened in the past week or so.... I went to confession for the first time in about a year. Spoiler alert: I'm a Catholic! Despite its rewarding nature, the Act of Reconciliation is one of the most daunting tasks in the Catholic faith. Not only does it make you stand up and admit your less than admirable moments, but it also gives you plenty of time to reflect on all the bad you have been up to, followed with a pleasant side dish of guilt. Although many people would run from this Act as if it were the plague, facing it sometimes is the best thing for you. I am all about self evaluation, its the only way we really keep our selves in check and also the only way we stay sain and down to earth. The reflection that is generated by preparing for the act is one of the rare times that you can calm your mind and focus on the things you have been doing in your life. Humbling is simply the word for it and that is the entire point of this sacrament. And to be honest, the priests are never really that bad. Any Catholic or Christian knows the priest aren't going to give you a gold star for your sins, but they also arent going to chastize you too badly. I find that I am the harder judger than they are and once again the point of the Act is made: to be aware of your own faults and want to change them.

So on the dawn of this new day, I urge you to go out and simply enjoy your life. Every once and a while do a self check to bring your focus back into perspective. For those religios out there, get to Confession or simply to church, you will find that a moment or two of prayer will help calm those anxieties and stresses in your life. Striving to be a better person takes time, but its a daily effort to change that gets you on your way.